firelighter

I took this quote my friend Lindsey Renee Langstraat shared.  I am not sure where it is from but it articulately conveys what I have so inarticulately attempted to communicate in this blog.  If I were to quit writing, and for all intents and purposes I have for now, this is what I've been trying to say:

"Fire lighters are those who take charge of the dark by their own means, for their own purposes. It seems that the natural desire to avoid pain directs us toward a path of independence, when, in fact, the desire for relief and satisfaction, if the hunger is deeply felt, will lead to a path of chosen dependence on a Person greater than ourselves...The person who takes the initiative to keep her soul intact will violate the nature of her being to accomplish the impossible task...The honest person will admit that even though her fire-lighting strategies have won her a certain sense of safety, she is not living as she was created to live, and in the hollow chambers of her heart she is lonely as hell...The call to love and the determination to dodge hurt set up a radical contradiction in the soul."